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My Real Reason for Fear and Anxiety
I consistently felt a little anxious for the past few months. I was fearful about my future even though nothing terrible had happened in my life.
I read the Bible and prayed regularly, but I still did not have peace in my heart.
I could not figure out why it happened, and it got even more intense the day before my birthday.
I am turning 25, but what have I achieved? Did I try hard enough? All the negative thoughts floating in my mind are totally out of control.
I am grateful that I meet with a church brother once a week to study the Word. On that day, I shared my issues with him and asked if he had a solution. He asked me more questions to make sure he gained absolute clarity.
He suddenly pointed out a perfect point, which is why this article exists.
First, and most importantly, the desire to be entirely independent of the Lord was deeply rooted in my heart.
Second, I was anxious about my future, e.g. job, relationship, and health. It might seem normal to do that, which is pretty accurate since many people did it unknowingly.
As Christians, we know that we are sinful.
I realized I was worried all this time because I wanted to path my destiny and did not even think about what the Lord wanted. Even though I pray and read His Word, I did not submit my life to Him. He had a plan for me, but I did not bother and only wanted my way.
After I understood my root problem and prayed about it, I felt peace in my heart.
It is impossible to remove anxiety from my life. Nevertheless, I do not feel anxious regularly. From now on, I will slow down and think again when I start getting worried.
Am I feeling fearful because I want to fully take control of my life and not allow the Lord to be the captain of my ship?